Happy Thursday morning! As I woke this morning it suddenly hit me I yet again have been neglecting the blog so I figured I would sit right down and write.
When last we spoke I was to meet the surgeon on the 13th. Well I arrived for my appointment and found out she did not have paperwork from my therapist and psychiatrist that they had been waiting for so that ended that appointment in tears. Yes that is how disappointed I was. I had gotten myself so excited about the next step I had not even considered a setback. So after a week of back and forth phone calls from me making sure that faxes were being sent and received all my ducks were finally in a row!
Tuesday of this week I was FINALLY able to meet with the surgeon. She was so nice and really spent the time going over everything making sure she had all the information she needed to make the decision whether or not I was a good candidate for surgery. She told me that after talking to my psychiatrist she had really been on the side of turning me down because he thought surgery was not for me. But after talking to me for a while I totally changed her mind. Also my therapist who sees me more often and knows me much better thought i had a lot of support in place for after surgery and would do good.
So, after an extensive appointment she wanted to get one more test result from when i had my esophagus stretched to see if I would need to be scoped again before surgery by her, and then she is submitting everything to insurance!!! She is so convinced that everything is moving forward that yesterday morning i had my pre-op physical, ekg and blood work already to get it out of the way!!!
I can tell you the nerves are really starting to flow now. The thoughts of failure, success the "what ifs". Have you filled out a Medical Power of Attorney? That is another thing that needs to be thought of. This is major surgery, things can go wrong and forms should be filled out. Ugh....it all feels overwhelming but all i can do is take one day, one moment and one decision at a time. And this folks is the biggest decision i have ever made.
Well, that's all for today. I will keep you updated better, it's happening fast now who knows when i might be getting phone calls....let's hope the first one says that I have been approved...that is the first big hurdle. Wish me luck ♥ Big hugs to you all.....Shelly
