THE JOURNEY SO FAR

So it has been a bit since i have posted, much has happened that I really would just rather stick in a box for another day, death and funerals, depression and anxiety. Mindless eating, mindful eating. Weight loss, weight gain and weight loss again. Let's just move on to today.

Today was an exciting day. I woke filled with anticipation. I started this weight loss journey on Feb. 28th with the webinar, had my initial consultation appointment on March 13th. I then had the psych eval on March 28th, which for the last month i have stewed about wondering if i passed or not. YES!!! I PASSED!!! I now only need to get my therapist and psychiatrist to fax letters saying that i am ready for the life change of this magnitude. On April 6th i had my first exercise evaluation.

So, that brings us up to today. Today I was weighed and I lost 19lbs!! I have gone from 311 to 292. I saw the exercise coach and got my first set of exercises to do 3 times a week with the resistance band to work my upper body. I then saw the nutritionist who was not pleased with my eating habits. I was totally honest about how i was losing the weight. My calorie intake was ridiculously low. So we spent the hour going over what i need to be eating 3 times a day with every single meal and i volunteered to do a food log. I said while i didn't really want to do one it was probably a really good idea for me to do one. We set my goals for the next month which were the food log and eating breakfast every day. Then i saw the bariatric nurse and we discussed what i still needed to do and any questions we had at the time.

All in all it was a good day. I had a slight blood sugar emergency at the end of the day as we left the hospital, fortunately we carry glucose tablets in the van and that got me home ok.

Tomorrow I sit down and make myself a schedule. When a person is disabled, living with chronic pain, life can become....well, motionless...like time is standing still. Day in and day out you sit in the same spot doing the same thing, if you are me you sit looking at the same computer screen, playing the same game or looking at the same facebook pages. You ask yourself if it is worth the pain to take a shower today....usually it isn't (don't judge). If you are like me you only leave the house to go see a doctor and then come back home to the same chair.

Now i am not saying that on my schedule that in there isn't going to be big blocks of empty space to be sitting and doing just the same thing but on that schedule it will start EVERY DAY with a shower...whether it hurts me or not...why? because i will not leave my house if i have not showered. And if i will not leave my house I will not go out and go for a walk and if I will not go for a walk how am I going to get healthy? Makes sense right? Second thing on that list is going to be breakfast...why? well because i said I would! And I will log it! Third thing on my schedule will be brush my teeth....why? well i may have to smile at someone on my damn walk right?! Man I hope not! Did I mention I don't do people very well??

So those are just a few things that will be on my schedule. I will post it when i get it done. Y'all might think some of the things on it are pretty dang basic but people that deal with issues like me tend to let some of the "basic" things go by the roadside. Well I think this will do for now. Please excuse any punctuation mistakes and capitalization issues as i tend not to capitalize at all so I am trying to be a big girl for y'all LOL .....big hugs your way....till next time ♥